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goodbye .

life's hectic .

time's running out .

im shagged .

okay , bye .

i could hear them laughing and mocking at us . why be such immature kids ? i hate the ending myself but it started with an alright scene . ours began like a hit and run incident . nothing great just that we met by coincidence , a very beautiful coincidence . but it had this drastic ending , like a sudden fullstop . it was a heartache afterall , what could you expect ? i was nothing but a chapter in your life . just a chapter , never a story . i want to get you out of my mind . why cant i seem to find that delete button ? dammmn .

whoaaaaaaaaaaa . it seems that i have been missing from onsugar for quite a some time . apparently , i have told some poeple that i shall and would not blog until the O's are over which is like in another half a months time . but gosh , this computer seems to be going a good job into pulling me back into this virtual reality and make me feel like wanting to type something again . it feels so empty without any current updates . and im sorry that im going against my words , i cant help it . i cant stop the computer either cause my eyes are glued to the screen . i cant move a single inch away now .

so lets see . i talked about graduation yesterday night with someone . it makes me feel sad again . only like less than a month to graduation and it's separation for us . i wonder if separation is gonna hurt and i wonder if that moment when we walked away , would we still remember each other ? i have been thinking quite a lot these days . so many things to worry about .

it's the raye now . ohhh yessssssssss ! $$ , keeps coming into my pocket like hotcakes . (?) hahahha , well you get what im trying to describe dont you ? i suck at saying apologising face to face , really . it seems that my heart turns to stone and stays rigid the moment it was time to apologise , especially to my parents . nah , not that i dont like them or something , i just cant seem to do it . but i manage to do it in the end ! yay me ! [: it wasnt easy , i feel so embarass saying sorry infront of my siblings . ohh well . i've gotta learn to do it sonner or later .

prelims results suckingly sucks to the ultra max and some subjects never fail to dissapoint me huh after all those effort that i've put . screw chem and eng . so now i suppose you know what im dissapointed with . though there were improvements for almost all subjects , i really feel that it wasnt up to my expectation . ohh gee , maybe i was giving too much hope on myself . okay , come on zana . be realistic . hais .

sometimes , forgetting isnt the best thing to do is it ? i didnt know i was so unimportant to your life , that you could have forgotten me that fast . doesnt concerns me now though . ohh well . glad to know that you're doing fine with life .

i really think i should stop continue typing here but i cant . urghhhh . i want to type some more but then there's this voice at the back of my mind trying and asking me to stop typing and get my ass moving . go study , study ! your results are already so shitty , and you're still using the computer ? stop procasting and please do a reality check zana .

okay , wait . lemme type a few more and im done .

im literally angry with you , just that im not telling you but im like showing it to you . i know it isnt right to be angry with you but you made me . i was freakingly fed up with you . i was excitedly and happily talking to you , and then someone else interrupted our conversation . okay , fine . that part i didnt mind . but then , you acted so ignorant afterwards . that made me lost my mood to talk to you for the whole day , and i just cant be bothered with you for that whole day . you can start asking me if im alright , and why im so quiet , acting weirdly . all i do is deny whatever you just said . simple . but still , im kinda angry with you . i think i just need to go to sleep tonight , let my mind rest , and everything's gonna be alright .

love escaped and ran away today   ):

apparently , i think bus drivers these days are either blind , or have slow reactions or just out of their mind . i was waiting for the bus , so when the bus came , it stopped so much far far away from the bus stop . i think the bus driver must be blind , cause maybe he cant see me standing there . but he cant possibly be cause i saw his eyes at the bus stop . am i invisible or something ? dengs to the max uhh . wth . must be that the bus driver's reaction is slow . i think they should sack those old drivers . hahah . serve em right .

okay , so now i really think i should stop typing . im done for now .

await my next post in 123456789 days , cause i wont be back soon . i gotta learn not to go against my words .

dont miss me ,

and i know you miss me more than you know you do .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME  :D

thank you a zillion for those who've wished me and also for the presents too !

but sad to say , some people whom i thought remembered my birthday apparently forget .

ohh well .